Monday, September 20, 2004
Viola!!

I tried to add another entry over the weekend on the kitchen computer.
That one is acting really weird and I could not get past the title page.
Finally I decided to come down here today and check the mail

I am ready to switch to a new email from google.
So anyhoo.
I am starting a new twelve week session of Light Weigh on mondays then hoplefull mass and then going to Curves.
We are learning to eat only when  hungry and stopping when full hmm pay for me. I have daily prayers and journaling and scriptures to read.
I have am also starting again the Community bible study on Tuesdays
Which I have 20 minutes of questions and  answers to do.
Tuesday evenings the retreat team womens group meets.
WE are reading " Seeking Spiritual Direction" and having a discussion and pray time.
We have been encouraged to have something called " Morning Pages" writing 15 min and three pages daily.

I have joined the Aspirant Class for Carmelite Order, That meets 2nd thursday of the Month.
I am starting the discpline of reading the litergy of the hours. and trying to  go mass each day.

Uh I think all of this OULD keep me from eating the " Bread of Idleness"
and watching garbage on tv.

This past saturday the retreat team had our own day retreat.
We all prayed for each other and minstered  the gifts.
Many wonderful promises and words came from the Lord and we were all
so strengthen by our time together. Pray for us to be hidden from the snares of the devil.
thanks to my faith readers bless you,



























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Wednesday, June 16, 2004
X marks the spot

Uh hey fans,
I managed to get hydrated later that day.I still felt weak for the rest of it though.
After Pierre got home I asked for his help, putting the weed covering down.
IT was alot more humid by then.. BUT at least we were not in the direct sunlight like I was in the morning.  Uh it was pretty tense for a while. Working towards the same goal.
I continued to weed, while he laid down the black weed film. I also thought about sprinkling some weed prevent stuff on the ground as well. However he had already laid down a large portion of the film.
Uh that was not such a good idea. WE managed to finish the one side of the house.
I have almost complelty anialated the lambs ear. This time a spent a long time diggin out the roots,
Those things are relentless. I am hoping that the weed prevent and the black covering will
suspended some growth for a while. I don't think its a sure thing though.
Dinner was at 8:30..I had put chicken breasts in at  uh..  5:00 and some baked potatoes.
So no wonder when we did eat pierre says "This chicken is pretty dry" !

anyhoo,, we watched the pistons win  yahoo.
I only watched the last 3 games so I cannot claim total fanship.
So now being that I worked so hard all day in the yard, I decided to put my long seat cushion
massager on the bed and turn on the heat and rest for a while.. Yeah that really helped for a while,
So I turned off the heat and the vibrator.. and thought I am too tired to get up and put  it on the chair  it shouldn't be a problem.
Yeah.. Why do I lie to myself like that?

So I wake up this morning to this horrible kneading feeling in my posterior region.
I sweated getting out of bed. My cheeks were harder than cement.
I guess after 7 hours off laying on a cushion with wires in it was not so comfortable after all.
WHO Knew?? I have been limping all morning. the slightest movement kneads those muscles even further.
Fortunely I had a chiropractic appointment. I was somewhat relieved to go on the bed that slides a roller up and down your back for 10 min. They also put a very hot sponge like cushion on your back to lie on. I told the girl to turn it up to 4.. I usually can only do about a 3. I went in to see Dr. Paquin
and he asked me  how I was. I told him about the dehydrating episode AND
that I  uh kind of slept wrong on my chair massager and he thinks that I just irrated my tale bone, and makes a commnet.. BUT uh what I really wanted and "kneaded"
was to have my butt cheeks uh fixed.  I could not convey that to him, in a manner
without sounding somewhat " needy"

So He adusts my hips a little more than usual. So I walk out of there my back feeling much better  " "Butt  my gate was still limping and my cheeks still all twisted up.

Now I get to go sit at work for another 3 hours and watch Dr. Phil and Oprah..
maybe THEY" can help me.

Tune in,  etc

too tired to type the rest





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Tuesday, June 15, 2004
I feel this green

Well,
Add me to the list of  a scary dehydration episodes.
David was the first a few weeks ago, Leah the following week. and now...
Me.
I woke up fairly early this a.m. and decided to get a jump on all the weeds that have reproduced in this last weeks rainfall.
I attacked the side that I had not covered a week earlier. It was in dire need of immediate attention.
Demon-like pointy scratchy ones as big at a ruler were waiting for a duel.
I approuched with my new garden gear. (Knee pads, rubber garden gloves and a red trowel).
However I DID NOT take two of the  most important accessories. A water bottle, and phone.
I ravaged through all the mean ugly weeds then went over the hardy irratating lambs ear that will not die.

URGGH they have multiple roots that just dig under ground and shoots that go on for yards.
I felt myself reaching a considerable sweat, but plowed onward. I also was not really paying attention to the time. AND I went out there already hungry, but told myself I would only spend a short time out there. I made it half way down the side of the house. Leah comes out saying that she was looking for me and had been calling me. She said I had a phone call. NOW I should have just took the phone and sat back down..
However once I got on the phone I felt I could continue to dig a few more. I picked up some weeds and discarded them in the wheelbarrow. And then stood up. (
My leader from the Wiegh Down class)  she needed to tell me about the alternate plans for next week's meeting,
and was asking some questions about a freind that had decided to join. She needed her name
and other info. I quickly realized that I was really exhausted and was starting to feel very sick.
I continued to answer her questions and walked through the garage heading towards the family room door. I just got off the phone and weaved my way into the bathroom. I felt like I was gonna hurl.
and I had this weird non focus thing happening in my eyes. It was almost like blacking out
but I did not see black or anything!! the toilet was just fuzzy looking.

I managed to get there in time but due to my anxiety in hurrying, I pulled my knee pads off and proceded to dump black dirt all over the floor. I didn't care I felt horrible.
I went into the kitchen and pulled out a ice bag from the freezer and got a pedialyte bottle from the fridge. I sat down on the floor in front of the vent. and just soaked my head with the ice.
and tried to slowly drink the pedialyte. I had heard that when you do get dehydrated
that you should just sip very slowly or you will hurl.
I could care less how ridiculous I looked. Leah thought I was quite amusing until she realized I was drinking her pedialyte. (She asked me if I was alright)  The ice bag was not cooling me down enough so I put it on my head, then neck and opened up the fridge and slid myself in front of it. I sat there for about 20 min.
and during that time thought I should try to eat something, but  did not think it would stay down.

Leah decided to make a hamburger and then I had one after her.
It took a long time to get rid of the panic feeling."
Then she reminds me that I need to take her to work and says "you have an hour to sober up!"!
its now been 2 hours and my my legs still have that chewin gum feeling.

I also made mince meat out of my lower back muscles. I am sure I will hear from them later.

I dont know why I felt the need to accomplish so much all at one time. I have no idea  of the meaning of moderation. or baby steps. I reason that I have a slot of time and I am gonna go for all the gusto I can. Full steam ahead.
And I ALWAYS pay in some way for this mentality, and driveness.
and in spite of all this I still want to head out there and finish what I started!!

Now I have spent days last year walking past those weeds and totally ignored them.
They were all over the sides of the house and around the deck. I could care less.
I used to do that with the inside of my house. I could walk past christmas stuff until Valentines day
and not bat and eye. But every now and then. This "Shena the Clean Warrior" would emerge.
NOTHING would escape her eye, " EVERYTHING MUST GO" " IF you have not used it in the last year its  out of here"
NOW why didn't this kick in the first week of January??
who knows?

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Saturday, June 12, 2004
spam problems

Dear Freinds,
I would like to apologize to those that I have entered into my notifications list.
I found out that there was a better way to invite you to view my blog.
Leah just emailed those that she wanted to see it.
I am really sorry if I caused you to get unsolicited mail. propostions or junk that you do not want.

Looks like I am still working out the bugs to this and getting more computer savy.
This week was somewhat uneventful. Although I have started another new eating plan called
Light Weigh. Its somewhat like Weigh Down Workshop, but with a catholic viewpoint.
So once again I have been learning to eat only when I am hungry and stop when I am full,
However I DO get to eat whatever I choose, with moderation of course.
Its kinda hard to stick to eating the amount of your clenched fist or coffee mug.
But I am learning to obey. I ate a bag of M&M's the slow way at the movies
and skipped getting popcorn. I also found out that  having a tablespoon of peanut butter
last for hours. 
On my way to my weekly adoration time.

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Monday, June 07, 2004
weekend fun

HI
I am back from a trip with leah to my parents and sisters this weekend.
We attended a mother daughter luncheon at their church. They had a really nice meal
that the mens' group served to us.. Later they had a fashion show of antique clothing.
It was narrated by a women who has an extensive collection. She shared some interesting facts on the attire and the time period they came from. My sister Sandy modeled a 1900 bathing suit
It was made out of wool and the top went below the knees. Could you imagine swimming in wool?? and how heavy that must have been?
I am itching just thinking about it. Synthetics had not been invented yet, But I still do not know why their choice was not cotton.. Maybe it was too see through??
They also work hats  because it was vulgar for a women to be seen with wet hair!!
That just wild!! HOw many of you have been on vacation near a pool or beach and gone shopping and seen someone in their bathing suit and wet hair??
She also modeled a very matronly 1800 black suit accompained by a hat.
I think it was one of those outfits that women wore when they were widowed. I remember watching Ann of Avonlea and seeing something like that.
Then finally a 1960's paisely print shift accompained by her own white  go- go boots. I really enjoyed the fashion show, it was a bit long but still nice.

Later that day I watched Smartie Artie loose the Belmont by a nose. I had not even heard of this horse until my mom mentioned she had to watch it before we left for shopping.
I was not so interested until the horses were in the starting gate.. all that hoopla and two mintues of racing. I have to admit my disapointment, He would have won the triple crown.
That last one was Seattle Slew 21 years ago. or 25 not sure of the exact year.
I know it was supposed to be a big deal.
We went to my favorite place to shop. Gabriel's is like a giant T. J. Maxx with name brands and some irregulars. I bought some really nice shoes Rockport sandles or 14.00 and Born shoes for
ONLY 9.99. The reason being that the sales girl in the shoe department did not have a price tag
and could not compare it to any other shoe it was the last pair.
 These shoes are regulary cost 100 or above !!
Leah said she was just irrated at all my question and small talk that she just wanted to get rid of me. Doc Martins for David for only 40.00. Materinty clothes for Amy. Rockport tennis shoes for Pierre, However they were too small I had forgotten exactly what size he was. I am going back in two weeks so I will just return them.

Sooo...  any of you lady freinds want to join me to a trip to Pittsburgh this summer ?.
YOu shopaholics would love it. The clothes are arranged by the name brand or designer.
They have a shoe department, housewares,bedding as well.
I need another shot at finding more deals.

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Friday, June 04, 2004
Uh not this again

Hi,
This is my second night of waking up at 4:30.
I am wide awake and cannot get back to sleep.
My brain got a jump start when I went to the bathroom. It wants to stay up. Its having a wonderful time thinking and planning and musying, (here is where it gets wierd)..
I think about typing a weblog and I type out the keys in my mind!!

I am thinking about the dream I woke up from.
Then I start analyzing what was happeing in it.. I rethink as much of it that I can.  I also think about the main person  in mydream, I keep thinking of when we could get together. which day is the best and how to fit it in to my schedule, how its taking so long in the first place to carve out some time to be with them.
Then my brain takes me on a rabbit trail to memory lane. I now am "talking" to this person about a situation,
I am " daydreaming" when I need to be "night dreaming"

I then start thinking about my friend I visited today, that i helped clean and then went to an award ceromony for her son.
I think about when I can go back and help out again.. I literally start counting days to see how many times I week I can go, ok there are 7 days how can I split this up to two times a week. i count 4 days apart Wed to  Sunday,, uh no that won't work, uh thursday to monday, nah i work in the afternoon and have a class at night.  Uh tues to friday, uh no I help a mom in my subdivion, and the problem is that it changes each week to keep it two times a week, Urrgh
I guess I have to just make it once a week. Thats all I can do.
My helps gift is on overdrive.

I think I need something to get me back to sleep and decide to come downstairs and take a benadryl.
That  always make me drowsy. Then I remember realized I am congested and my doctor told me to take a decongestant when that happens so I look for sudafed, can't find it at first, after some digging in the bin I  find it.
I read the label and its "non-drowsy" Now what do I do? do I want to go to sleep or deal with my congestion,, well I guess I can take the benadryl and check my mail and see if david is on while working. Nah he isn't and I have only one entry.
So now here I am, my body is way behind on sleep and I have to think about how I will feel later tonight when I plan to drive to my mom's in pittsburgh.
Leah and I are attending a mother/daughter luncheon with my mom and two sisters saturday
I also  want to attend our marriage encounter picnic on sunday.
So I start counting backwards to see when I need to leave to be home by 2:00.
I am so sleep deprived its fairly hard to do.

When I am manic like this, I have to do my best to stay on a routine and get the same amount of rest each night. Whats wierd is if I go to bed late like at 11:00 I then cannot fall asleep.
If I go earlier I can.. You would think that by the next day one could catch up due to lack of sleep, but what actually happens is you go into this whirlwind of thoughts and planning and activity.
The body is dragging around while the mind wants to run the show.
Another part of me ( i guess my soul) needs to step in and tell them its balance time.
Ok so I am gonna close and make myself get some rest.
The benadryl has arrived and its starting to work.

chow










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Thursday, June 03, 2004
Lets try this again

HI there blog friends,
Last night I had one of my A.d.d blips.
I had written on my calendar that there was a womens group meeting.
So I did the mapquest check to where it was going to be.
Then I left to go there, A bit late but thought I would call Tesa on the way to her house.
I had this mild nudge to call before I left, but thought I would wait until I was closer to her house.
I got on 23 and then called her instead of waiting. She answered and I said
" Hi tesa I am on 23 and on my way" She said " Uh Terry your on your way to where"?
perplexed I said " uh to your house for the women's group meeting"
Tesa then said" Uh terry there is no women's group meeting tonight"
"But I have it on my calendar"!  (Like that is then suppose to make it happen)
"Oh thats right its on the Eighth !!  Uh well this ISN"T the eighth either uh yeah thats next Tuesday!!

Geezzz The poor dear has not known me long enough or knows my blips.
I then decided to pull off the nearest exit and head home, BEEP (Brillant Idea)
I decided to call Pierre and see if he will meet me at Lowe's to pick out tiles!!
( now isn't that a great idea)? He suggest I just come home and we take one car.

Ok so we head out there, I tell him I also want to pick out some paint swatches for the walls.
(remember sky blue) and then look at tiles. he reacts and says " Oh YOUR planning this now"

We do that for a bit I find something close, then we head to the tile aisle ( say that 5 times fast)
I see some and mention there they are.  He snaps " They are the self- adhesive kind" ( he was fine down the other aisle) I just about snapped my neck looking to see what happened to him.
"okay so lets got down the aisle more, we can still find the other kind."
Which I then get somewhat confused over what kind we ARE looking for.
I started looking for the glue on kind, or commercial ones.
He goes into this passive to panic mode. We are then playing " whose on first"
I keep saying ok so we dont want the self- adhesive right" 
He wont answer me.  I am looking at cartons of boxes
trying to find what I think he wants..  ( and me too)
I had no idea what he wanted. I say "ok so what we need then is non-adhesive glue on kind right"
uh still no answer.. I then think I finally find some that says commerical grade on the label on the shelf.. he sees that they are    still self-adhesive.. and really gets blistic
" You know I  do not even now what I want to do or how I am going to fix the basement if I want to make it all one room or not, I dont' know what I am doing yet"

Sheeshhh!!
I then think thats it.. I cannot keep up with this, I have to just turn this over and not make it so important anymore. I have the last stage of design figured out and I will just wait.

I say ok then I guess we can ask at the desk if they even have the kind that you want.

No one came for a while so I say " we might as well just leave, You don't know what you want to do yet so that has to be figured out before we go any further."
I am near tears thinking I am so frustrated in trying to get going on this project.
I will just switch to the other project I can do right now.

He  then...says he wants to go look at tools!!

HE NEVER wants to look at tools!!! in all the time we have gone there NEVER!
I am really loosing it now.. I just surrender and pray "Lord this is yours
I cannot do this, You have to put a fire under his butt"
well someone showed up because when I got to the " tool section"
he was looking at compressures. And he smiles at me and is all loopy!!
his tone of voice had softened and he was fine!!
I am loosing it at this point.. He is  switching moods like a 13 yr old girl!!
I cannot keep up with him I am tellin ya. I think I need to buy a construction helmet...
in the " tool section"

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Wednesday, June 02, 2004
feeling like a parent

Hey there freinds,

Do you ever have those days when your not sure your doing your job effetively?

I got this note in the mail about a mom.
Subject: Research Associate in the field of Child Development and Human Relations

A woman named Ann renewing her driver's license at the County Clerk's office was asked by the woman recorder to state her occupation. She hesitated, uncertain how to classify herself.  "What I mean is," explained the recorder  "do you have a job, or are ou just a ....? " Of course I have a job,"
snapped Ann.  " I'm a Mom."  " We don't list " Mom" as an occupation.. " housewife covers it" said the recorder emphatically.  I forgot all about her story until one day I found myself in the same situation, this time at our own Town Hall.  The clerk was obviously a career woman, poised, efficient, and possesed of a high sounding title like " Office Interrogator" or " Town Registar."  " What is your occupation? She proped.  What made me say it, I do not know.. The words simply popped out.
" I'm a Research Associate in the field of Child Development and Human Relations."
The clerk paused, ball-point pen frozen in mid air, and looked up as though she had not heard right.
I repeated the title slowly, emphasizing the most significant words.  Then I stared with wonder as my pronouncement was written in bold, black ink on the offical questionnaire.  " Might I ask," said the clerk with new interest, " Just what you do in your field? "   Cooly, without any trace of fluster in my voice, I heard myself reply,  " I have a continuing program of research, (What mother doesn't),
in the labortory and in the field, ( normally I would have said indoors and out).  I am working for my Master's ( the whole darn family), and already have four credits, ( all daughters).
Of course, the job is one of the most demanding in the humanities, ( any mother care to disagree)?
and I often work 14 hours a day, ( 24 is more like it). But the job is more challenging than most run- of- the-mill careers and the rewards are more of a satisfaction rather than just money."
There was an increasing note of respect in the clerk's voice as she completed the form. stood up, and personally ushered me to the door.  As I drove into our driveway, bouyed up by my glamourous new career, I was greeted by my lab assistants -- ages 13, 7, and 3.  I felt I had scored a beat on bureaucracy!  And I had gone on the offical records as someone more distinguished and indispensable to mankind than " just another Mom."
Motherhood.. what a glorious career! Especially when there's a title on the door.

Does this make grandmothers " Senior Research Associates" and Great- Grandmothers
"Executive Senior Research Associates?
I also think it makes Aunts Associate Research Assisitants!!



I recieved this in the mail for mothers day from a very dear freind.
she hosted my confimation party at her house last year.
Today I was feeling like I was loosing touch with one of the lab assistants.
I"m  at another stage of letting go of an " Adult/ Child"
Some say it gets easier with each one. But the other adage is " they are all so different"
which means each time is different and sometimes not that easy.
and theres also the one about how much differnt a parent you are
with the last.. So thats where I am at.
Greiving childhood and lettin go.
I now this one will be back when they turn 21.
I got the first two back..
I just have to think " see ya later"


over and out for now.

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Posted at 02:06 pm by marleblanc
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welcome

HI
Okay I think I finally got an idea of what I am doing.
I just went to blogdrive.com and read instructions.
I HOPE this works.

I had some really nice entries on the other one and really do not feel like typing them again.

I lost my creative genius once I heard that no one could read them. although I am still trying to figure out how to make a profile..

well I spent too much time figuring this out and have other stuff to do.

later
kateri

Oh and for those who do not know or are wondering
Kateri was the name I choose when I entered the Catholic church.
I like terry kateri therese.
more on that later

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hi younse (for those in pittsburgh) Hey for the rest of you people. You may get some of my random thoughts, musings,occurances. and perhaps get a look into the bi-polar a.d.d life that I live. And now to qoute a favorite song of mine. ( this is for you david and leah) " Somehow loving Jesus comes so naturally. I knew that I was always meant to be. A worshipper a follower of Jesus HE has given me life, He's given me life abundantly, Hi Ho dilly I hi, Hi ho dilly I hi, go with me to lands of stories and lands of dreams to people and places you've never seen Hi ho Hi dilly I ohhhhh and off we go!!

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